This blog will be going on indefinite hiatus until I feel like coming back. I am not abandoning Derek - I will have another blog to play him, but it will be private and it will be prose. It isn’t beyond my notice that most people aren’t interested in committing to anything beyond ships, instant gratification by way of icon/gif chats, and one liners (or further more, never actually rping anything out, just saying things happen or did happen or will happen).
You roleplay how you roleplay, for whatever reasons you have. That’s fine. Me? I roleplay to write. To explore the character. I build my muse and to do build my abilities as a writer because that is what I love. I may be borrowing characters from other canon but I put as much effort into world building and character building as I do with my original characters. I realize it isn’t fair to expect the same from everyone - so I’m not.
I don’t. My expectations are now null and void. I expected you would read my rules but most of you didn’t. I expected you understood what it means in my rules when I say I am mainly prose. I was wrong to expect these things of you. I may reach out to you on my new prose account but only if I know you want to write, that you are in some way committed and invested. Otherwise, I’ll come back here when I stop feeling let down by the roleplay community for having standards. Do I sound bitter?
I’m just fucking exhausted. I have felt discouraged and it’s a pain in the ass because I love Derek and I want to write for him. So, you’re all great, okay? I mean, don’t think that I believe otherwise. But what you want and what I want — it isn’t matching up. And I don’t want to put unfair expectations on you. Thank you.